Sunday, August 24, 2008
tired
piss off. y mine mum cant juz relax. everyting aso scare i cant do. when i nid help she dun help. when i can handle myself she always put 1 hand in. argh. speechless. i knw i can be rude, but i tink e gaps btw me n mine parents r getting wider.
e more i knw e world outside e more i get confuse wif their teaching. i knw i am a useless daughter n i can onli try mine best nt 2 make them worry. maybe our tinkings r juz way too far.
i juz dun understand their tinking. mine mum has always been like tis i can understand, but e change in mine dad left me helpless. his judgement use 2 be follows but nw it onli confuse me. everyting he saes nw become powerless. he is acting juz like mine boss. 2 faced guy. argh.
i am piss off wif myself e inability 2 tc of myself. i am so tired. when can they stop nagging as a form of concern. i dun nid tis i nid peace n rest 2 continue tis long journey.....
cant stand it. sry 4 being rude but i hate ppl bugging ard me, even thought i knw i am e bug most of e time.
tink i am really stress up. hope tml ping jie gt some gd destressing plan tml. but i juz receive her sms saeing may cancel cos she is sick.
hw i wish i can juz leave tis mess go for a hol had some fun bef coming bck 2 face tis reality again
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 12:21 AM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Farewell notes....
This few daes has been receiving farewell notes.. frm mine classmates n one of e colleagues… I knw more will come.. is juz a matter of time..
Seem like life is abt meeting new ppl n farewell to e old ones.. We haf billions of ppl living on e world. To be able 2 knw each other is all brought tgt by fate. Hw we treasure this fate depends on ourselves.
Many r frez tat will spinkle stars into ur life.. Most r juz those sand u saw on e beach. Wad is so precious is those who leave prints in ur life n changes ur life n view abt ur future. These r ppl whom u will nv 4get even aft many yrs...
I will always rmb mine pri sch form teacher, previous Ms Tay. Now Mdm Tay liao..But i still nt used 2 calling her Mdm. She made a great impact on mine life. Changed mine tinking. Let me c hw impt education is. Make me feel tat i am impt. N hw impt it is 2 make myself grow up... But too bad we lost contact wif her when she stop teaching at Yuhua. She is 1 of e most impt person tat bring our class tgt. Working as one, Strive to study n play hard.
Teachers make great impact on students like us. Once an toopid student nt tat i am clever nw @.@. Even tuition teachers, i met 2 tat i believe changes many lifes.
There is no turning back in life. Every turn back u tink of may nt be wad u really can get. I haf regrets. But no turning bck. All i can do is move forward. BLSS motto. Looking forward, Moving toward. To love and to forgive. But hw many ppl can really do tat. Frankly speaking i cant. Memories r always better den reality...
If i really can turn bck maybe i wan 2 go bck 2 sec sch, bef start mine IT dip. Maybe e path 2dae will be different. Maybe i may nt haf meet u ppl. Maybe maybe maybe........
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:32 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Tired real tired
Endless prob endless workload. head pain until cracking up.
TIRED !!! Dun haf much 2 sae...n i dunno knw hw long can tis last.
Every mintues and seconds spent is so tiring...
wan 2 slp early but gt puppet show at void deck. Den tml still gt gai tai... no nid 2 slp liao lor..
nt euff slp, headache, heavy workload = bad mood =(
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:35 PM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Happy national dae hur~~
So sian mon exam liao but til nw i still dun haf mood 2 study.. being unable 2 concentrate is e main reason... too tired. i dun knw where 2 start studying.. past few daes cooncentrate too much nw kent study so !!!!!
haiz.. hol like no hol so bored... More exams r coming.. more workload coming.. everyting aso increase execpt time. 24h a dae nt euff anymore, too much 2 settle too little time. Super long nv bring mine son go walk walk le... i tink aft exam n all tis shit work i muz go out n play whole dae nah.. Argh i wan hol !! Get out of SG, out of e city.. do some other stuffs other den staring at e screen or bk.. Beri long nv enjoy e nite sky.. tink i haf forgetten hw e stars look like..
Ping jie star cruise idea nt bad but hmmm... gt adults ard still nt as fun bah.. So hmm.. looking out for other plans soon.. tis mth is juz too bz 2 tink abt enjoying n relaxing.. able 2 go jp walk walk, haf a sit, drink n chat is alr beri happy liao.. life is getting crazy bz.. But i dunno wad i am bz wif?
Many tings i cant blog out cos i wouldnt who will be reading it so... nthing much 2 comment abt... But wad i knw is singapore has a freedom of speech... Wadever we sae or tok abt even kapo stuffs. we haf our rites to comment. E rite to protect n sae our thoughts. If wad we do is rite n doesnt harm any1 y shld we be bother abt wad others sae...
Life isnt abt abt preventing backstabber or scare of making enemies.But protecting e ones u care abt n thoughts is wad really counts nt words.
Argh i dunno hw i am going 2 pass tis coming exam.. nthing can get in mine brain. i can onli pray hard. aft so many yrs of studying mine hands can write out wad i am nt able 2 rmb....
Fighting a war wif unknown enemies making self-defencing hard. But i knw i am nt alone. Able to protect self is a life long hard lesson tat i knw i will haf a hard time learning it.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:13 PM
Monday, August 04, 2008
Tired
Haiz.. tis few daes gt endless of work. Here haven finish more coming.. seem endless. So tiring n moody. argh!! Ridge n crosby crashed. sian. Y do tis mth haf 2 be so happening. 2 big shipments, follow by last adv dip exam, den gt 2 finish up changing e location of e stock for e top 10 products. den cycle count. So sian can.. bzbzbz mth.
So many 2 do yet so little time. I gt a feeling like wad mama sae... i am being led by a carrot infront of me 2 make me continue 2 jump. But as i c e carrot more clearly. mine shoulder gets more heavy.
Gt e urged 2 submit e letter 2dae. but maybe i am too tired. e computer screen is hurting mine eyes. E more i do e more slpy i get. mine mind is block i cant tink. Clearing stuffs like robot. no feeling no tinking. everyting feels nthing more impt den a gd hol.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:54 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Gemini
GEMINI - The Twin
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone. Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey.
-Ar. Am i nice? hmm i dun tink so wor haha... Is easiler 2 be a bad person.
-Love is one of a kind? I dun understand tis wor..
-Great listeners? I tink i am a great complainter lol.. nag too much. =x.
-Good at confusing ppl? I am confused myself hw 2 confuse others wor @.@.
-Lover nt a fighter.. hmm i dun like 2 fight le... world peace.
-Since i dun like 2 fight hw 2 knock ppl dwn wor hmmm...
-Yes i will nt take other ppl craps. cos i am a crapper.
-like 2 tell ppl wad 2 do? i dun like 2 force ppl wor. i onli gib advise. 2 follow or nt is up 2 tat person.
-Yes i get offended easily n get piss off wif myself.
-Yes i am great @ losing tings, i juz lost mine grandmum. D=
-I am very forgetful. i gt STM. mine poly mates call me ah ma lol.
-Very sarcastic? Yes i can be if i wan 2 be. but nt always i dun wan 2 be hate by ppl wor.
-Childish? Yes i am. I am nt tat old wad? so ya childish is fine wif me.
Nosey. Hmmm ya at times. when i feel bored i can be nosey cos nthing 2 do wad =P bleah.
Ok above is e report of a gemini doing a reflection base on hmm. An email she recd.
ok nite ppl. i am bck 2 studying. juz pray hard n play hard. Studying hard is nt an option but a path tat i haf chose but hard 2 kip up.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:20 PM
Exam coming
Arrrr... so bored nah. dun haf e heart 2 study. hai. somehw no mood 2 study tis sem. seem like time passby so fast. Time nv wait. Tings juz continue to happen. So much haf happen tis pass few mths.
Ytd juz went 2 mine grandmother's hse 2 celebrate her birthdae. looking at e condition of mine grandfather worries me. haiz. He look so lonely in a so crowded hse. But i dun knw wad i can do. visiting them more regularly may help? But seeing him breaks mine heart. i haf alr juz lost mine grandmum i dun wan 2 happen again. But there is nthing much tat i can do...
Tok 2 mine aunties n uncles they too rejected mine idea of working part time n studying part time. hai. i dunno if i am nt mature euff nv tink euff or they dun understand hw hard it is for us 2 study n work tgt wadaes. I knw many tings is nt wad as simple as i tink but by tinking simple. life would be happier. Wad i chose nw is nt to tink abt it, but sometimes when tings happens i would still ponder if i made a rite decision. Many tings r under gray area. Is a matter of decision making.
I juz made a decision wifout mine mind supporting. juz follow e wind. Hope time can tell me if i made a rite 1. mine mind n heart is tearing apart. where shld i follow mine tinking or feeling? I dun haf e mood 2 study.. i dunno hw i am going 4 e exam. many tings r nt wad u wan n u will get it. trade-offs in btw makes a big different. i dun knw hw 2 make up mine mind. Nid some supports but....
shall get bck 2 mugging haiz. hate exam but luv 2 study. tink i am juz tearing myself apart frm all tis toopid tinking n decison making.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:49 PM
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