Zero Dimension

Zero Dimension

How much do u tink u knw abt me? Read on..

♥Welcome to e Zero Dimension,
♥Where life is simple n easily happy.
♥No more headaches n endless problem.
♥Far away frm e city area, closer to rural.
♥Feel e air n watch e sky ard.
♥Everyting is so different.
♥To the world of peace n harmony .
♥May all mine frez live happily in their own zero dimension.
♥All rights reserved.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Recall ytd

i am nw blogging while on my way 2 nlb to meet wif mine assignment mates. i am late.

juz nw i happen 2 be reading my sis's blog, while reading my tears starts 2 flow, she actually had e same feeling as me when we heard tat mine grandmum was admited 2 hospital. aft e funeral we didnt tok abt it anymore. cos it became a touchy issue at hm.

E scene came bck, mine grandmother laying cold on e kitchen floor. i wouldnt stop mine tears. tat nite it took me awhile 2 be able 2 start crying. i knw i gt 2 be strong nt 2 worry mine parents. but somehw i wouldnt. it was mine 21th. Y tat dae. i kip questioning myself. i dunno hw i will be facing e nxt birthdae. hw am i going 2 tell mine frez. every happy birthdae msg i recd tat dae was a stab. i dunno hw 2 reply. even aft so many mths i can still rmb clearly wad happen tat nite.

i dunno wad happen 2 me 2 feel so negative. maybe cos i recd too much sad news? maybe i pressure myself too, i dunno. i am tired of myself for tinking too much. i hope e coming hol can refresh myself. i wan bck e orginal me.

2nite aft meeting up for e assignment i will be attending my eldest cousin wedding dinner. e wedding tat mine grandmother wasnt able 2 attend. e 1st eldest granddaughter in-law tea tat she miss 2 drink. all i can hope is she is doing fine upstairs watching out for us. i truly missed her. mine parents is asking me 2 shift 2 her rm at e end of e yr. i dunno am i ready 4 tis...

last but nt least i hope every1 can treasure their loved ones cos once they r gone is gone. treasure e surrounding ppl. dun regret when they r gone.

i gt lost once as a child when mine mum brought me 2 e polyclinc. i still can rmb even thought i was onli 3-5 yr old. while i was playing on e playground inside e compound. mine mum suddenly disappear frm my sight. i panicked n start running ard while running i started crying. i wouldnt find mine mum. i still sometimes waking up frm tis nitemare. i dunno y someting tat has happen so long still affects me. maybe frm den onwards i dun haf sense of sericulty wif mine mum. i had hard time slping sometimes numb wif work is a method 2 get some slp.

some memories juz cant be 4gotten. n they r hard to 4get. Ting tat will n can affect ur life normally cant be 4gotten. i hate my brain for tinking so much. sometimes when tings can be kept simple is e best. complicated stuff always turn messy.

i juz had a complicated wk. feeling dam tiring. i was push 2 grow up. n i hate it.

Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:17 AM