Sunday, November 30, 2008

New blogskin

hmm.. been like blogging on sun ard 9+ for e past few wks...

Been bz n tired tis wk. stk take n mth end closing. euff to drain me off.

Starting nxt wk will be a brand new wk. classes has come to an end. Exam will be nxt. dec will pass fast. everyting juz flash by aft stk take n den a beginning of a new year. A new start too I hope.

I mean get out of e situation n start a new. I knw I haf been saeing tis for nearly 2 yrs, but nw I am still saeing it. Ok I aso dunno wad will happen nxt. I mean tings r hard to predict n hard to foresee. I can onli try my best. N nw e market is beri bad. So .. tings get worst.

But as daes pass tis feelings get stronger. E feeling to get out. Sometimes I juz feel like shouting in front of them asking them 2 cut tat crap. Stop acting. U r nt cute. In fact irritating to the core. Sometimes I am afraid one dae I maybe like them. Fakers. Environment and people can affect one’s direction, feelings and tinking. I dun wan 2 be affected.

Shall stop here. My sis is nagging 2 ask me slp…

Changed my skin. Hope for something new.

Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:58 PM

brain vs heart. Who wins who suffer?

juz hand in unfinish assignment. cant really continue doing. too tired to continue, maybe i am nt e most tired ppl. some r still stuck in office nw. i wonder wad will happen tml...

i am juz glad i am nt e chosen one.

i hate to surrender but i haf no choice but to let go....
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:14 PM

hai so bz n stress 2dae. kip rushing n rushing. hope to clear everyting 2dae but tings kip coming in. n i tot of doing my assignment during lunch break end up onli write 2 sentence den went bck to work. so many tings to clear can. pending here n there...

Is so rare for me 2 ot nwadaes. cos sch started. n tings get tired. no extra $$ hur... assignment still nt done lor. sian. i 4get to bring my thumbdrive hm la. toopid me. nw i dunno wad to do. haiz.

saw e cone 2dae. tink beri long of getting it bck, since it is no longer appreciated. shld collect it tml morning if i am able to wake up early which i haven been able to do so. Sch is tiring. i wonder when e nxt sem is starting... tinking too far ahead since e exam haven even started lol... hope for a nice break. to take a rest frm this suffocated lifestyle. hope nxt sem gt nt so much of assignments. cos i knw cfn sure gt assignment one. juz e amount onli...

tml is mth end closing liao.. for e nxt few daes wouldnt be able to be online... since i will be moving ard the w/h. even i online i wouldnt be staring for the screen long. ha. so no msn for me e nxt 3-5daes. hope stock take faster end. feb faster come.

Start sending out resume again.. dunno isit too early. if gt reply aso dunno hw. hai but nevertheless, shall test out the market bef dropping e letter. my parents wouldnt allow me to leave if i cant find another one, looking at the current situation. if nt hope eric can kip tat job open for me =D. but e place is far hai... nvm let's wait n c. wad i haf is time. wad i dun haf is $. i am looking out for opportunities.

When a door is closed, another window is opened somewhere. Juz nid the patience n endurance to wait for the right timing.
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Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:58 PM

dam sian. still haven finish e toopid assignment. onli 400+ words nid 2k nah. tue muz hand in liao. haiz... dunno wad 2 write. kip writing e same ting copy n paste.

tml is a new wk again... last wk of sch. den dec exam.. mth end coming... more n more bz...

actually gt alot of tings to blog de but i didnt blog it when is on my mind. nw i cant rmb. i gt STM hur. cant blame me.

bought my table at last. coming on 2nd wk of dec. nt e glass type i wan but bo bian. limited space limtied choice. e measurement r rare to find. e selfish one juz dun gib up on his rm. waste a rm for singing. wad to do. juz hope i can move out when e time comes. hate to be force. but under his roof u cant do much.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:38 PM

haiz.. dunno wad happen juz dun feel like going for class. drag n drag went out abt 1.30. when e class starts at 2pm. n i nid abt 1h15min to rch. so sure was late.

den bef i even rch e bustop. 198 zooom pass me. yeah great. nw i am even later. So was sitting at e bustop waiting. I am nt sure wad i was waiting. 20min ltr bus came. n i let it zooom pass me again. so ok i made up my mind nt to go. no exam tip for tis module.

So i am bck in front of my PC watching CSI on tuduo. Great to be a student. maybe my dad juz piss me off.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 2:12 PM

Tis will be my last post 2dae... continue posting interesting stuff nxt time..

Juz scan through my mails n saw tis mail it reminds me to be strong. Be strong @ times of losing. Aft xmas will CNY, i dunno hw tis CNY dinner will be like. 1st year without my grandmother ard, i dun even knw if there will be any gathering. My aunt sae bef when e elderly is gone in e family, so as e bond. i dunno hw true is tat. but juz by tinking of it, my eyes r getting wet. maybe maybe nxt yr will be a harsh yr. We gt to be strong tgt. i dunno if e sender rmb n kip tis mail. but i juz hope those words remain true.

Somehw time pass so fast......... June is coming again soon den i expected.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:00 PM

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy
And Will Not Contact Thinking It May Be Disturbing
As Time Passes
Both Will Think Let The OTher Contact
After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First ?
Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate
Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak
They Forget Each Other.
So Keep In Touch With All And Pass This TO All Your Friends... I Don`t Want To Be One Of This Kind.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 7:58 PM

第一個想到的是~你
什麼叫做緣分呢？ 一見鍾情？ 相知相惜？ 平平淡淡？日久生情？ 我想，只有真正努力的人，才能遇上好緣分。 請把這三個感謝轉寄給你認為是'好朋友'的朋友吧~~~ 親愛的朋友，想對你說三個感謝 ... ..................

第一個謝謝你讓我走入你的生命,作你的朋友,
或許我不是你最精采的,但是我總是盡力作到最好

第二個謝謝你願意走進我的生命,扮演朋友的角色,
或許你不是唯一最好的,但卻是我生命中最精采的

第三個謝謝你這一路走來,很多的包容、安慰、關心、用心......

所有的深刻都在你給我的回憶裡. 在這美麗的天空裡....你在想誰呢?? 我就當然想起你啦--

親愛的好朋友，有緣做到朋友是很難得的，

只要大家將心交出來，沒有事情是不可能的， 不過千萬不要勉強，right？
把這message送給你喜歡和關心的人~~ 當然也可以送回來喔^__^~~ 我等你
人的思緒是複雜而凌亂的...當夜深人靜時..你會想起誰?.. 我會想起....與各位認識的種種點滴滴... 直到我們都年老時...是否會像現在這樣...坐在電腦前互訴心聲?.. 我想...到那時候...大家都已經老到無法打字了吧...^_^.....
不管如何.....我們永遠是最真誠相對的好朋友...如果您同意我的說法..請把這個訊息回傳給您的朋友... 讓他們知道...你是多麼的在乎他們..^_^ 當你收到的信越多~代表在乎你的人越多~ 不要忘記傳給我..I miss you!.....*^_^*
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 7:56 PM

Never, put your banana in the refrigerator!!!
This is interesting.
After reading this, you'll never look at a banana in the same way again.

Bananas contain three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber.
A banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy.
Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout.
No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes.
But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. I
t can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana. This is because bananas contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body converts into serotonin, known to make you relax, improve your mood and generally make you feel happier.

PMS: Forget the pills - eat a banana. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Anemia: High in iron, bananas can stimulate the production of hemoglobin in the blood and so helps in cases of anemia.

Blood Pressure: This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt, making it perfect to beat blood pressure. So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the banana industry to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure and stroke. Brain Power: 200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break, and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Constipation: High in fiber, including bananas in the diet can help restore normal bowel action, helping to overcome the problem without resorting to laxatives.

Hangovers: One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a banana milkshake, sweetened with honey. The banana calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heartburn: Bananas have a natural antacid effect in the body, so if you suffer from heartburn, try eating a banana for soothing relief. Morning Sickness: Snacking on bananas between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito bites: Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the affected area with the inside of a banana skin. Many people find it amazingly successful at reducing swelling and irritation.

Nerves: Bananas are high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system. Overweight and at work? Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at wor k leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report concluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar levels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods every two hours to keep levels steady.

Ulcers: The banana is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of its soft texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in over-chronicler cases. It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach. Temperature control: Many other cultures see bananas as a 'cooling' fruit that can lower both the physical and emotional temperature of expectant mothers. In Thailand , for example, pregnant women eat bananas to ensure their baby is born with a cool temperature. Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): Bananas can help SAD sufferers because they contain the natural mood enhancer tryptophan.

Smoking &Tobacco Use: Bananas can also help people trying to give up smoking. The B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress: Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance. When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our potassium levels. These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium banana snack.

Strokes: According to research in The New England Journal of Medicine, eating bananas as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by strokes by as much as 40%!
Warts: Those keen on natural alternatives swear that if you want to kill off a wart, take a piece of banana skin and place it on the wart, with the yellow side out. Carefully hold the skin in place with a plaster or surgical tape!
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 7:49 PM

beri sian 2dae din feel like working. but i gt a pile on my table. yet i still didnt stay to finish up. cos i dun wan 2 stay really tired.

somehw i had alot of tings 2 blog when i was tinking while bathing. nw sitting in front of e desktop tat i had nt been using cos my sis hogging it. i cant really type out. or shld i sae. i blank out.

Time is juz passing so slowly. 2dae e GM annouce bonus will be done in Feb which was 1mth later den wad my boss said. i juz dunno if i will get e full 4mths. feeling someting nt rite somewhere. maybe i am too quiet 2dae. until i scare myself off? I hate slience. tat y my mp3 is beri impt. it kip me frm being in slience. Juz saw some rare ppl oting 2nite, juz feeling werid. maybe life is bck 2 normal. but nt for me. e feeling somehw is still nt rite.

Read some of my previous mails while searching for passed assignment for other ppl reference, saw interesting mails. hmm.. ltr i will post up 1 by 1. haf fun reading.. my eyes r hurting. i dunno y. tis morning dam pain n kip tearing. tink i gt 2 rest more..

I am still sad i didnt get a reply. Shall tis slience continue i may leave eariler den expected. haiz. i hate slience. Sry tat i juz type tings out of random. cos i dunno wad i wan 2 sae n express. my eyes getting tired alr.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 7:31 PM

hai, juz feeling moody. bargain for an offer previously n nw lost a chance. Didn’t get my appraisal, felt cheated again.

Words r nt mean for my ears. See no evil, hear no devil.

Hopes r gone…

dun haf e energy to go work early these few wks. dam sian. dam tired. juz gt no motivation.
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Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:16 PM

2dae is presentation dae. i didnt really read e full report for the assignment. so i dunno wad to present. juz read plainly frm e ppt nah. shld be able to pass bah. i dun ask for much juz pass will do.

juz rch hm. gt piss off. my sis has been letting her frez to use my lappy. WTF, let her use beri gd liao somemore invite her frez 2 use my laptop. is nt e 1st time. dunno wad rubbish they do again. going 2 lock both pc until i get my new table. den i will lock my dr when i go to work. piss off. Where is my P&C at hm. Is nt tat i gt tings to hide but i juz hate ppl touching my tings specially when i dun even knw tat person. Nw she has no PC to use. Gd news.

daes has been getting bz. wif stk take coming soon.. n shipments still coming in. i dunno wad hell control e management is taking cos i dun c any. except for e ridge shipment. I dunno, seem like these two has been crashing tis few mths. giving me lots of headache.

Xmas is coming, those xiao di di n xiao mei mei has grown up. Nw i dunno wad to buy for them. n i tink i wouldnt be receiving presents anymore cos i am 21 liao. tat is wad my aunties sae. anyway nt impt. e gathering is more impt. being tgt as family. tink tat is e onli reason tat make me go bck 2 my granny hse every fortnight.

Soon e yr will end den CNY. i dunno if there will be gathering tis yr, cos everyone is like bz wif their own life n is getting harder to meet up. but still we will try 2 start someting n c anyone interested to join. let me tink bef i start anyting hmm...


无言是一种毒药 更象一把刀, 我不会再跟你闹 我会随着时间蒸发掉。
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:54 PM

有时候我觉得自己是一只小鸟
想要飞却怎么也飞不高
也许有一天我攀上了枝头却成为猎人的目标
我飞上了青天才发现自己从此无依无靠
每次到了夜深人静的时候我总是睡不着
我怀疑是不是只有我明天没有变的更好
未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道
幸福是否只是一种传说我永远都找不到
我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求不算太高
所有知道我的名字的人啊你们好不好
世界是如此的小我们注定无处可逃
当我尝尽人情冷暖当你决定为了你的理想燃烧
生活的魔力与生命的尊严哪一个重要
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:32 PM

watching tv is someting rare tat i do. juz dun feel like doing anyting.. so tired aft packing e rm. didnt knw i haf so much tings to pack. shifting rm soon. going 2 buy new table n chair..

a rm tat dun really call mine, still sharing wif my sis. juz tat i taking up most of e space anyway e rm dam small n nt really wad i wan. ting juz dun go smooth.

haiz
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:59 PM

Haf been bz tis wk, bz trying to finish assignments, bz preparing for e toopid stk take. Argh!!!!!!! Hw I wish I would shout everyting out.. venting everying into e air n stop tinking abt it.

2dae suppose to be going bck for work. But morning e system cant use. I actually wan to go bck in e noon, but I gt lazy. I dun wan to be in e office. Hw I wish I can get out off tat place. But e ting is I gt stuffs to do. N I cant finish. I really cant finish. N I gt complained. Piss off. Work kip coming. Tings nv get done. Ya if work can finish y would ur boss wan to employ u rite.

I wanna to stop blogging, I wan 2 stay focus. But I find it hard. Blogging is abt saeing wad is nt suppose to be said, feeling wad suppose nt to be touched n doing wad suppose to be done. I dun like to sae tings out. But I crap a lot. I am noisy I knw. But when I am quiet means I am either in deep thoughts, tinking abt something or something is bothering me. So I am always noisy all e time. It kip me frm tinking too much n getting tired. Maybe I am juz born to be entertaining myself n disturbing others. Tat’s my nature.

Fri took company transport to cck, made a lot of noise during e trip. Disturb a lot of ppl frm resting. I am sry for being so noisy la. Juz feeling happy n relax cos is a fri at last. N I am going 2 sing which I haven been doing for so long. Away frm all e prob hur. Those toopid assignments.

Aft reading wen’s blog or shld I sae old blog, I find it dam funny. She scold me in her blog le. I get to be in her blog title “si jie ying” lol. So funny. But tat happen long ago. Juz find it funny to c my big nick in someone’s blog title. My blog history didn’t go tat far cos my previous blog I deleted it accidently when e blogger changed it settings. Or u can sae I was toopid den. Nt tat I am clever nw juz tat I haf learn more den my previous daes.

Kip watch e CSI interesting…
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 5:14 PM

i juz wan 2 sae i am sry. maybe i am too over trying to protect the frezship n it backfire. A letter i didnt knw if i shall send, cos i didnt get any reply e previous mail.

i am e one chose to be ignored n turn out to be sad by it. juz toopid me. Maybe i dun knw hw 2 treasure tings. maybe i lost too much tis year. maybe.. maybe..

是不是我的话又伤害了你？
是不是永远不想和我说话？
你的安静是你给我的承罚吗？
可以告诉我吗？

可能是我的倔强和原则破坏我们的感情而不是你复杂的关系。

你知道吗，没有你的唠叨，笑声，还有嘈杂声世界变的好安静。很不惯。

我重来没有不把你当朋友。只是那天心情真的很差，不想多说。我知道我很情绪化，让你很烦真的很对不起。

我知道你见不到你的女儿很伤心而我的笑容以不在让你开心。很对不起我帮不上忙。

只想说对不起请原谅。不管怎样你永远是我的朋友。
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 4:54 PM

wkend juz pass like a blink. tml is mon again. bck the e chaos lifestyle again. i dunno y. i am feeling frustrated. I am annoy. I am somehw piss off wif myself. I am feeling so useless n helpless. I feel tat I am losing control of my life. My direction somehw gt lost somewhere. I dunno wad am I going to do. As I haf sae bef we survive by being able to predict our environment and acting according. When predictability disappers, so to our sense of safety. I juz dunno wad is going to happen nxt. Lost. I nid time. To tink of wad to do nxt.

My mum is nagging. Nagging abt e mess I haf made. E mess I dun feel like clearing. My dad is pestering us to shift over to my grandma rm. But I dun feel like doing so yet. Everyting they wan, they wan us to follow. Y didn’t they ask us, r we ready? Wad am I doing everydae when I faced my pc? Sometimes I feel tat I am so used to their nt bothered attitude, n when they r really concern I get piss off. Cos u always haven been bothered abt wad I am doing. Y e sudden concern n putting ur hands in my issues. Ya I knw I gt bad manners n my attitude is bad too. N worst is my temper. I knw a lot of ppl dun like me, n misunderstood my meanings. But e ting is I dun really bothered if I dun treat u as a frez. So I dun really care.

I miss my morning session wif my dog 2dae cos I wouldn’t wake up n it’s raining. I miss e chance to spent some quiet morning pondering abt wad is life. I haf spent too much time on my comp. n I dunno wad I am getting out of it. Nt gaming, nt watching tv. Changed a lot of my habit since I start working. N I changed again when I start class. I kip changing to adapt to the new tings tat is happening. But adapting to sudden change isn’t easy. It take time.

I aso dunno y I wan 2 hide my blog nwadaes. Maybe cos there is too much tings piling up tat I dunno hw 2 handle? I juz dun wan ppl to get worry. But am I making ppl worry I dunno. I cant difference wad is concern n wad is the opp of concern?
I onli knw I am irritated. I knw my temper is bad. N it get worst when I am moody. I knw I haf moody swings. N it will affect ppl ard me. I am trying to control. But e will power is juz nt there. Avoiding is e only solution tat I can tink of nw. n there isn’t much I can do. I always wan a break. But I cant define my break. I dunno hw long I wan 2 rest. I dunno hw n when is e rite time to stop n take tat break.

There is really a lot of tings I dunno. But i knw everyting happen for a reason. N I believe life is a cycle. Wad we do in e past will reflect it in e future. I dun rmb wad I haf done when I was young. But I knw I haf regrets. But wad has pass has passed. I dunno y I kip tinking abt it. But actually I onli can rmb fragments of it. Nt e full part. Maybe something wrong wif my brain.

A new wk is coming. I dunno wad to look forward to. I haf stop planning. I dunno hw 2 manage my time. I can onli chiong. I haf learn to kip quiet. Kipping quiet is so hard for me. I am juz so noisy. Cant be helped. Tired. Assignment still nt done. N I dunno hw….
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:15 PM

Ytd I juz had another class, tings r going harder. Assignments dateline r all so near. I dunno which 2 continue. Cant really focus. Too many to do. Almost had another argument. Nw I find it tiring to read emails. Shooting here n there. I dunno wad’s up. As the number of members increases, the work is harder to do. More conflicts more problems. 9 ppl in a grp too much to handle. Rite frm the start I knw part time studying isn’t easy. Is so !!!

Tut is nt like wad we used to had. Exercise in class where by we do written programming. New way of doing assignment using wiki. Which I find it totally useless. I haf always like to do tings in tech way. Less paper work. More freedom n time. But nw I find tat is getting tiring. Becos tech is making tings easy. We gt to do more to show we haf done researches. N some ppl juz piss me off. I juz dun understand, y do u nid someone’s student id even bef they start doing work? N u r using e source frm e text n we haf to search somewhere else? Tat is lot of teamwork. Human r selfish. I knw. I haf seem it many time.

All those simple sch life haf pass, even part time studies aso has it sides. Human juz like to make tings complicated. Nw I gt to do all e editings, all the junks tat they throw in. sometimes grp assignment juz drain me off. N I really wan some rest on wkends. Wkdaes haf to smile, act like nthing happen. Doing wad I am suppose to do. Watch out my steps. Is getting tiring. N getting worst. Lack of slp? Maybe I juz dun feel like continuing n yet I dun wan to let go. Cos I dunno wad will happen if I really let go. Kip tinking n tinking but is getting nwwhere.

N there is something e lecturer told us abt wad he heard over on radio, as time goes by, when humans interact too much, even love can becomes hate. Human itself is complex, hw abt e relationship? Making it more complex? Maybe wad wen sae is rite. I shall treat as nthing happen. Like kai yan’s case. Tings juz move on as time go by. We moved on when we graduate didn’t we. Even tot I really dunno y tings happen like tis but I am glad we moved on, moving forward is beri impt. We learn thru exp. Exp e lost, e pain, e joy n move on. Tis yr has been nt a gd yr for me. I will do a reflection when e year has finally comes to an end. Reflecting my mistakes helps me move on. Life is still far, gt to kip going on.

Feeling so irritated. Losing control of my temper n feelings. Aft listening to wen, suddenly I understood sometings. But in e meantime, I am still beri lost. Maybe cos too many tings happening at e same time I nid sometime to tink carefully abt it. Hw I am going to move on. But I knw I wan to move forward. I dun wan to be stuck here.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 3:47 PM

i dunno y i wake up at tis time? y i cant slp? y 3am? e onli ting i knw tml i will be dam tired....
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 3:34 AM

juz came bck frm jp... meet wif wen haaa, so long nv meet le. bz bz bz

tml going shushi tei weee. taco wasaba. tink wen is going 2 burn a hole in my pocket. lol =s.

i dunno wad's wrong wif my attitude y i gt 2 show my anger. i juz cant control it. i made ppl worried. i am sry. but i juz cant my temper. maybe it happen too suddenly. maybe i rec'd e bad news n ting happen at e same time. i dunno. mine mind is blank. juz wan 2 get out of tat situation nw.

so fan la. kena bluff again. ask me go study company will pay. nw finish liao sae onli pay haf, somemore bond one year. wtf lor. irriated. spoilt my mood. dam it. no welfare dunno wth HR is doing. onli knw hw 2 act blur worst do tings slow like snail. everting aso last min. dam sian.

i broke my promise. n shattered my own heart wif e lies. once e trust is gone. It's gone. no longer as bef. nv frez again. i hate ppl who lies when i trusted them. nv can forgive. Y shld i anyway? Seem like i am onli treated like a fool.

tml will be another tiring dae. when is tis kind of life going 2 end? when can i stop avoiding. i dunno. i am tired. Am i too harsh in trying to push her away, to pressure to leave eariler? i dunno. i am lost n confuse. someone plz guide me?
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:31 PM

hai. i knw i haf been posting abt unhappy stuffs...

shld i stop blogging. n let it hang there? since u ppl dun like read abt those. or shld i blog but nt posting them. leaving e nice nice blogskin there?

so tired frm e trip walking n walking.. nthing much 2 shop abt. but genting environment dam gd. so refreshing. so cooling. but still there is alot of ppl ard. i like a more quiet place.

didnt go work 2dae. partly cos i am nt feeling beri well. partly cos i haven finish my assignment. N most importantly i dun feel like going bck 2 work. No motivation. Lose my touch there. Getting bored. Kip hearing bad news. No gd news 2 be heard. It's affecting my mood to work.

Ignorance is e best. But some facts are juz rite in front of u. hw 2 ignore. I played toopid. be like a fool. treated like idiot. I shall 4get wad i haf seem. Let's nature take it course. Since ppl always claim they knw wad they r doing. Hope nthing can provoke my mood again. I may haf gt a soft-heart but doesnt mean i dun haf a strong will.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:45 AM