Zero Dimension

Zero Dimension

How much do u tink u knw abt me? Read on..

♥Welcome to e Zero Dimension,
♥Where life is simple n easily happy.
♥No more headaches n endless problem.
♥Far away frm e city area, closer to rural.
♥Feel e air n watch e sky ard.
♥Everyting is so different.
♥To the world of peace n harmony .
♥May all mine frez live happily in their own zero dimension.
♥All rights reserved.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

it's mon again in 3hrs

wkend juz pass like a blink. tml is mon again. bck the e chaos lifestyle again. i dunno y. i am feeling frustrated. I am annoy. I am somehw piss off wif myself. I am feeling so useless n helpless. I feel tat I am losing control of my life. My direction somehw gt lost somewhere. I dunno wad am I going to do. As I haf sae bef we survive by being able to predict our environment and acting according. When predictability disappers, so to our sense of safety. I juz dunno wad is going to happen nxt. Lost. I nid time. To tink of wad to do nxt.

My mum is nagging. Nagging abt e mess I haf made. E mess I dun feel like clearing. My dad is pestering us to shift over to my grandma rm. But I dun feel like doing so yet. Everyting they wan, they wan us to follow. Y didn’t they ask us, r we ready? Wad am I doing everydae when I faced my pc? Sometimes I feel tat I am so used to their nt bothered attitude, n when they r really concern I get piss off. Cos u always haven been bothered abt wad I am doing. Y e sudden concern n putting ur hands in my issues. Ya I knw I gt bad manners n my attitude is bad too. N worst is my temper. I knw a lot of ppl dun like me, n misunderstood my meanings. But e ting is I dun really bothered if I dun treat u as a frez. So I dun really care.

I miss my morning session wif my dog 2dae cos I wouldn’t wake up n it’s raining. I miss e chance to spent some quiet morning pondering abt wad is life. I haf spent too much time on my comp. n I dunno wad I am getting out of it. Nt gaming, nt watching tv. Changed a lot of my habit since I start working. N I changed again when I start class. I kip changing to adapt to the new tings tat is happening. But adapting to sudden change isn’t easy. It take time.

I aso dunno y I wan 2 hide my blog nwadaes. Maybe cos there is too much tings piling up tat I dunno hw 2 handle? I juz dun wan ppl to get worry. But am I making ppl worry I dunno. I cant difference wad is concern n wad is the opp of concern?
I onli knw I am irritated. I knw my temper is bad. N it get worst when I am moody. I knw I haf moody swings. N it will affect ppl ard me. I am trying to control. But e will power is juz nt there. Avoiding is e only solution tat I can tink of nw. n there isn’t much I can do. I always wan a break. But I cant define my break. I dunno hw long I wan 2 rest. I dunno hw n when is e rite time to stop n take tat break.

There is really a lot of tings I dunno. But i knw everyting happen for a reason. N I believe life is a cycle. Wad we do in e past will reflect it in e future. I dun rmb wad I haf done when I was young. But I knw I haf regrets. But wad has pass has passed. I dunno y I kip tinking abt it. But actually I onli can rmb fragments of it. Nt e full part. Maybe something wrong wif my brain.

A new wk is coming. I dunno wad to look forward to. I haf stop planning. I dunno hw 2 manage my time. I can onli chiong. I haf learn to kip quiet. Kipping quiet is so hard for me. I am juz so noisy. Cant be helped. Tired. Assignment still nt done. N I dunno hw….

Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:15 PM