Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Happy Chinese New Year
♥*´`*•.¸ ღஜღ ¸.•*´`*♥ ♥*´`*•.¸ ღஜღ ¸.•*´`*♥ ღஜღ ¸.•*´`*♥
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Ѽღஜღ 新 年 快 乐★恭 喜 发 财.ღஜღ Ѽ
Ѽღஜღ ¸.•*´`*♥ღஜღ♥*´`*•.¸ ღஜღ Ѽ
☆╭┐┌╮☆°.﹒
╭┘└┘└╮∴°☆°
└┐..┌┘───╮∴°
╭┴──┤HAPPY ├╮~
│o o│牛 YEAR │●°
╰┬──╯ˍˍ │ ∴°
☆ ˍ|ˍ/ˍˍlˍ|ˍ/∴☆ ~ Be Happy ~
✿。◕‿◕。✿ Jieying ✿。◕‿◕。✿
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Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:03 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
2009
Juz came bck frm mine grandparent's place. played majong n lost $$ la. hai no luck 2dae la. or maybe i wasnt really concentrating cos was listening to e new songs...
Tired played Sims2 frm morning til noon, juz to build e toopid apartment la. dam mafan la. muz kip changing e zone when i change e struture of e apartment. but somehw enjoy designing it more den playing it. so gaming gaming.. Virtual life is more easiler den reality. Reality is always cruel.
Nwadaes i kip feeling tat jieying is no longer jieying. i stop feeling for tings i shld haf react. Do tings tat i myself dunno wad i am doing. I always like to reply or cling to someone for someting like a protection area. but nw i feel tat trust is no longer secured. Is no longer a protection but a time bomb. moving away frm it, i lost my direction... So i am in searching. Searching for a position to place myself.
Sometimes i juz feel tat e burden is so heavy. But i juz cant drop everyting n run away. i knw running is nt a solution, but i gt tired. tired of everying. work, study, family n frez. But i cant even make up e decision to quit my job. My family r against it. My dad entertaining everyone but nt us. mum like so powerless, sis too young. n knw nuts. making them less worrying makes my burden heavier. so sian.
Y is life so complicated. simple stuffs r made complicated. everydae sit in e fish market i dunno if i will go nuts one dae. shouting screaming across e office like nobody's business. i dun mind ppl tok loud, but den image alot of them doing it at e same time. nv try wouldnt understand de. Somemore gt all those actors. act cute la, act clever la, act guai la, act helpful la, act kapo la alot la. too many to list...
Many daes i wan 2 blog but den i feel tat sometimes no point in blogging it. It will onli bring bck e sad memories. i onli wan to kip e happy ones. brain memory nt enuff. Dunno y i seem to become slow n toopid in e nite. n i juz cant rmb tings. maybe someting wrong wif my brain la. dun bother anyway. Juz stepping into 2009 i dun feel beri gd abt it. Tings r nt going smooth at all n going frm bad to worst. I try to kip my smile on, do my everydae stuff properly nt to show e unhappiness cos happiness is like a diease. It can spread ard. Ppl ard can feel it. feelings is someting tat is nt juz abt touch. is abt e underlineing meaning behide it. u may nt agree wif me, cos tis is onli hw i feel.
But my 6th sense gt prob. frez n foe i cant difference. no longer knw hw to trust n who to. Tings r better secure in heart where no one can touch it.
i am tired. hope tml i can still wake up early to bring notty for his walk tat i promise him juz nw. he gt gd memory nah. he will rmb wad i sae. >.<
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:24 PM
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Touching ~~ sob
他,忙于工作,每天早出晚归。
她,结婚后就辞去工作,每天呆在家里。
他,拼命工作,努力赚钱,为的是两人可以有个更好的未来。
她,辞去工作,全职顾家,为的是守护两人幸福的现在。
他很爱她,她很爱他。
他很老实,她对他在外面工作很放心,绝对信任他。
她很独立,他对她照顾自己很有信心,绝对放心她。
每天夜里,当他夜归时,煲里还有温着地炖汤。
每天早上,当他起床时,桌上都有温暖的咖啡。
这样的日子,从结婚后开始,持续了三年。
她从不过问他的工作,只是知道他在越升越高,日子渐渐富裕起来。
他从不过问她的家事,只是知道家里井井有条,家庭依旧和谐幸福。
他不喜欢电脑,每天工作就对着电脑 N 小时了,回家决不碰电脑。
她不喜欢电脑,每天却在独处的时候对着电脑 N 小时,非常忙碌。
直到有一天,他接到一通电话。
' 请问是陈先生吗?你的太太晕倒被送入院,她的子宫癌已经是末期了,请你来见他最后一面。 '
晴天霹雳,他赶到医院,看着她悲痛欲绝的问她为什么不告诉他。
她看着他,对着他微笑,告诉他她爱他然后微笑着永远闭上眼睛。
他失去了生活中心,他失去了人生方向,他失去了他爱的她。
他后悔,他懊恼,他怨恨他自己,为什么没花多一点时间陪她,去了解她。
妻子出殡后,他独自回到空无一人的家里,厨房里不再有炖汤。
他坐在客厅里发呆,想哭却哭不出来。
这时,他看到了客厅里的电脑,他想看看照片,这些他仅剩和她美丽的回忆。
第一次开启家里的电脑,看到桌面上有个叫《老公,是我》的文件夹,里面有 1095 个录影片段。
电脑荧幕上出现了一张熟悉的脸孔 ~
扬声器传来熟悉的声音 ~
他的眼泪,终于决堤而出。
' 老公,是我啦 ~~ 从今天开始由我陪伴你过吧 ~~ 不过你要答应我,一天只能看一个哦 ~~ 我们终于结婚了,你知道吗?能嫁给你是我一生最大的幸福,我会把每天发生的事情记录在一段录影日记里,几年后的结婚纪念日拿给你看,一定很有趣的 ~................'
影片接下来就是她絮絮不休的说着一些生活上的琐事和他们之间的事情,他看了看影片日期,结婚的那一天 ~
第一次,他违背了深爱的她的意愿,一个又一个的影片看了下去 ~
' 老公,你很忙碌,要好好照顾身体哦 .........'
' 老公,今天难得你陪我去购物,我好开心哦 .........'
' 老公,一周年纪念日了,谢谢你的礼物,对不起还没能给你生个孩子,我们再努力吧 ......'
' 老公,我身体很不舒服,不懂为什么常常会肚子痛,明天我自己去看医生好了 ......'
' 老公,医生说我患上了子宫癌,建议我切除,你说他是不是傻的,我还想要孩子呐 .......'
' 老公,我有乖乖做治疗的,药都有吃,不过我不要做化疗,剃了头就不美了,你一定会笑我的 .......'
' 老公,医生又叫我切除子宫了,他说不然就太迟了,我痛骂了他一顿,这家伙不知好歹,总是要破坏我们的计划 .......'
' 老公,我看我应该不怎么行了,请原谅我不告诉你,因为我想你永远记住我美好的一面,这些事情我自己来就好了 .......'
' 老公,我们结婚都已经三年了,我想我是撑不住了,我不在后,你要好好生活,炖汤的食谱都在电脑里,咖啡的冲泡方法也在里面,一切都为你准备好了,你要好好学着照顾自己。 '
' 老公,如果你一天看一个录影,现在已经三年了,你应该习惯了没有我的生活吧?是时候把我收在回忆里自己走出来了,你的人生还很漫长,找个爱你和你爱的人继续生活吧。 '
' 老公,应该是这几天了,我知道时间到了。不过我猜想你应该不会那么老实一天看一个影片吧,看到这里你也累坏了啦,我也很累了,是时候离开了。记得,好好继续生活啊。你还记得吗?你说过你会爱我一辈子的,我也回答你我会用我的一辈子去爱你。现在我们的诺言都实现了,我要离开了,我的确用了我的一辈子去爱你。你也别难过了,你已经爱了我一辈子了,这样的我们,很幸福不是吗? ....... 最后一次了,老公,对不起,我爱你 .....'
看完了 1095 个影片,他不知道已经过了多久,泪水流了又干,干了又流。
打开窗帘,温暖的阳光照了进来,他对着晴朗的天空,轻轻说了句 ~
' 老婆,对不起,我爱你 ~'
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:14 AM
Friday, January 02, 2009
Bangkok big fire
stepping to a new year a nightmare started at bangkok.
60ppl die frm e fire...
let's all pray for those who lost their love ones on this very first dae of 2009.
We r grateful to be alive even though we may nt be getting e best of all world.
life is nt prefect. no one is. life is unfair. tat is life. wad to do~~ haiz
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:06 PM
daydreaming dae ~~
2dae beri sotong la. dunno isit eat too much sotong liao. i go accidently del my dec accrual argh.. e most impt mth, most impt dae I do such toopid ting =( . spent e whole dae trying 2 recover wad I lost…
But I knw sometings tat is lost can nv be recover. Tings tat r broken even when mended can nv be e same again.
不是每样东西可以破了再补过。补了也不可能回到从前。
getting more n more sian of working... restless.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:23 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Happy new year~~
Ok i am full frm e steamboat...
n i haven slp nw cos nt everyone is aslp.
or i dun feel safe slping wif so many unknwn ppl..
e feeling is juz so diff frm camps n chalet...
somehw is juz mine hse.. haiz...
slpless nite..
is going 2 5am... i am tired.
Mine son is still making alot of noise.
maybe u r rite i dunno hw i shld face it ....
but i dun wan to lose it !!!
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 4:48 AM
JieYing
Juzagal
Wad’sup
♥A normal gal living a normal life.
♥Been studying on programming guava
♥Strugging to stay float in e working environment.
♥Strive to get out of the roof.
♥Studying is a chores, so as the cert.
♥Under e roof of Aqua-Terror.
♥Welcome to the Zoo; 8:30am - 6pm wkdaes daily
♥Life is getting boring
♥Hoping for interesting stuffs to happen.
♥Bad tempered gal wanting to shutup
♥Want to wake up as a child.
Listed
♥A less stressful working environment
♥Get Degree
♥Learn driving
♥Build my own D.I.Y PC
♥Go Taiwan
♥A goal in life
♥Jo Jo to grow healthy n nt to bite me !!
♥Earth to move without Sun
♥Stop wad is happening
♥Forward n Rewind time
♥Disappear frm ATOES
TagGY
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♥HuiMin
♥LiChing
♥LiPing
♥Maggy
♥Jesline
♥Eric
My dream Rig
Specification
Mother board - ASUS P6T Deluxe
CPU - Intel Core i7-940
Memory - Corsair TR3X6G1600C9 XMS3 Classic DDR3-1600MHz 6GB Kit
Cooler - V8
Power supply - Andyson MT8 AD-M800A2 800W PSU
Hard drive - Western Digital Caviar Black 1 TB, 32MB Cache for Storage
Optical drive - Samsung SATA 22X DVD Rewriter
Casing - Lian Li PC-A10
Graphic card - Sapphire 4870 1GB