Zero Dimension

Zero Dimension

How much do u tink u knw abt me? Read on..

♥Welcome to e Zero Dimension,
♥Where life is simple n easily happy.
♥No more headaches n endless problem.
♥Far away frm e city area, closer to rural.
♥Feel e air n watch e sky ard.
♥Everyting is so different.
♥To the world of peace n harmony .
♥May all mine frez live happily in their own zero dimension.
♥All rights reserved.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

2009

Juz came bck frm mine grandparent's place. played majong n lost $$ la. hai no luck 2dae la. or maybe i wasnt really concentrating cos was listening to e new songs...

Tired played Sims2 frm morning til noon, juz to build e toopid apartment la. dam mafan la. muz kip changing e zone when i change e struture of e apartment. but somehw enjoy designing it more den playing it. so gaming gaming.. Virtual life is more easiler den reality. Reality is always cruel.

Nwadaes i kip feeling tat jieying is no longer jieying. i stop feeling for tings i shld haf react. Do tings tat i myself dunno wad i am doing. I always like to reply or cling to someone for someting like a protection area. but nw i feel tat trust is no longer secured. Is no longer a protection but a time bomb. moving away frm it, i lost my direction... So i am in searching. Searching for a position to place myself.

Sometimes i juz feel tat e burden is so heavy. But i juz cant drop everyting n run away. i knw running is nt a solution, but i gt tired. tired of everying. work, study, family n frez. But i cant even make up e decision to quit my job. My family r against it. My dad entertaining everyone but nt us. mum like so powerless, sis too young. n knw nuts. making them less worrying makes my burden heavier. so sian.

Y is life so complicated. simple stuffs r made complicated. everydae sit in e fish market i dunno if i will go nuts one dae. shouting screaming across e office like nobody's business. i dun mind ppl tok loud, but den image alot of them doing it at e same time. nv try wouldnt understand de. Somemore gt all those actors. act cute la, act clever la, act guai la, act helpful la, act kapo la alot la. too many to list...

Many daes i wan 2 blog but den i feel tat sometimes no point in blogging it. It will onli bring bck e sad memories. i onli wan to kip e happy ones. brain memory nt enuff. Dunno y i seem to become slow n toopid in e nite. n i juz cant rmb tings. maybe someting wrong wif my brain la. dun bother anyway. Juz stepping into 2009 i dun feel beri gd abt it. Tings r nt going smooth at all n going frm bad to worst. I try to kip my smile on, do my everydae stuff properly nt to show e unhappiness cos happiness is like a diease. It can spread ard. Ppl ard can feel it. feelings is someting tat is nt juz abt touch. is abt e underlineing meaning behide it. u may nt agree wif me, cos tis is onli hw i feel.

But my 6th sense gt prob. frez n foe i cant difference. no longer knw hw to trust n who to. Tings r better secure in heart where no one can touch it.

i am tired. hope tml i can still wake up early to bring notty for his walk tat i promise him juz nw. he gt gd memory nah. he will rmb wad i sae. >.<

Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:24 PM