Wednesday, May 20, 2009

痞子英雄

Nice show muz watch...

Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:21 PM

Sad juz finish watching prison break last ep. the show that i haf been chasing since poly has ended. Juz like e same feeling i had when i read harry potter's last bk. i dunno wad to look forward to.

Everyting will come to an end one dae, no matter wad. I really nid to learn hw to let go. 拿得起放的下。i am really bad at it. hai...but i understand every end is also a beginning. To end for a new beginning..Anyway, tml will be going for an interview.. for fun? Since someone called i wouldnt throw away the chance la.. Even though the job nw is more interesting, however is aso more stressful. i even stop studies for 1yr. but i nv tell mine parents. i tink they gt alot to worry abt. One less to worry is not a solution but at least not tension.

Life is going harder, my parents are getting older, sometimes my mum talks abt her workplace make my heart beri pain, but i cant really do anything. Gt to work harder, let them worry lesser. Hope my sis will be more sensible. There is too much tings tat I tink in life is helpless abt. I dun really knw if fate is my hand. There is too much to tink abt. So much to learn, yet I dunno if I can adapt to the ever changing world. Many words are mean to be said, but I said too much already. Is silence really golden?

Thur will be the last exam for the year, but yet I dun feel the tension to study for the test. Maybe I am prepared to fail, cos my final report wasn’t finish when I handed up. I really dun tink I can continue… Many ppl juz pass n go.. I dunno if I will get numb one dae by tis feelings.

Sun will be my grandmother’s lunar death anniversary. Another boring family gathering.. has been so many mths since I last visit my grandparents. Bz wif work n sch. I wonder will it ever stop. Since I will be planning to learn driving when I finish my exam. Intend to make a visit on june bah, since I already taken leave. Maybe will change plan if I gt a new job la.

Aug gt stock take again. Dam sian. Every few mths gt new activties dam tiring. Dec-jan account auditing, feb-march iso internal auditing, march-april external auditing, may-june operational auditing, july-aug cycle count, sept-oct iso internal auditing, oct-nov external auditing, nov- dec stock take. Then the cycle repeats again. Argh so sian lor. Hw to breathe wor. Account is changing whole lot of ppl. Young ppl are leaving, those old, hard core old aunties and uncles juz stuck their butt on the chairs. They are juz so $%@$##%^!^#%#@%#!%!@$.... I juz dun understand when their children are working outside like me, hw would they feel abt those aunties and uncles they faced liked us. I always believe, 好人有好报，坏人有报应。对人好，人家也会对你好。However when I start working in tis company, these doesn’t apply anymore. Some ppl juz sux to the core, no matter hw u treat them, they are still the same. Some ppl juz dun care. N I dun wan to care anymore. Is really not up to my judgement anymore. I cant different those who r fake n those who care… I am somehw numb. Adult mind is beri complex. I juz cant understand why simple tings can be so hard to them. Anyway I cant be bothered anymore. Since those ppl I once respected is leaving soon.

I gtg tml nid to wake up early for interview nah….. hope I will update soon…
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:22 PM